Nox Amicus

Ten days ago we had another New Moon – but it happened on the day we were flying from Oahu to Kauai; the middle of the vacation. Also – I had no idea what March’s theme would be. Collaboration had gotten us there – but what would being there bring?

As I look back on the trip though – and at moments, challenges, and adventures – I think the theme right now is Renewal; which seems fitting for this time of year. I realized that this was the first time since 1978 (I think) that I was in Hawaii with no other family than my brother, sister-in-law, and their family. There were shadows here and there of what Sean was like before high school… and a lot of “stuff” that’s gotten in my way in the past 40 years came into perspective.

A lot of it is just too “inside baseball” to post publicly – but sitting at dinner I got a clear sense of “my” family. Through the trip, there were snippets of “you can’t go home again”, but then there were moments that suggested that we’re never really gone. Mahalo nui loa to Bob, Carol, Joshua, and JJ for their ho’okipa and opening my eyes to ohana again.

So as I move through this month, Ostara, and the equinox – I want to try to leave my shadows alone for a while and keep my focus on the light of the sun. It feels like it’s time to bloom again.