Nox Amicus

There was a cautious optimism coming out of my last New Moon post. I’d chosen “renewal” because of how I was feeling and processing the trip to Hawaii. There was so much of that which called me back to myself – and so much of the intervening years that called for processing and forgiveness. In retrospect we are rarely exactly who we would have wanted to be in a moment – but that’s what growth is for.

I’d had some ideas for this month – thoughts that planned to build on what had come before, deepening the sense of renewal and the promise of rebirth that spring holds. But for right now there is other work that needs my attention, so in line with that, I’m going to pursue Patience for this lunar cycle.

In the age of instant gratification and twenty-four hour news, I think we lose track of the value of waiting. We’re so busy saying ‘I want to do this now, know this now, be there now, change this now’ – that we forget that sometimes the process is the thing, not what the process leads to. Sometimes the final product is irrelevant, it’s the waiting and crafting and tempering that is the real work, and sets us up for so many more successes than the one thing we thought we were working toward.

I have the rarest of occurrences this month – I have three weekends with no commitments. I think there’s a very good chance I’m going to keep things that way. In the quiet and the waiting will come either questions or answers.

There’s a principle in physics called the Observer Effect, which holds that the act of simply observing a phenomenon changes both that which is being observed as well as the observer. I’m going to just be patiently watching for the next few weeks, void of expectation, but mindful of the changes – and any calls to action those changes may prompt.