Nox Amicus

First things first – yesterday was a new moon, so it’s time to examine the last cycle and see what the new one might hold. The last cycle I decided to focus on perspective. There were a lot of things swirling and pending, that could be seen as positive or not-so-positive, depending on the light in which you viewed them. Even the not-positive and hard times are there to teach up lessons – so knowing that I was being mindful of perspective really helped to navigate some tough situations. Keeping not only my needs but those of the people I interact with in mind, really helped me to see if I was showing up as the person I wanted to be.

Two weeks ago I got a text message from a close friend who sold me my last car. It’s tough to believe it’s been three years since the concussion!! But the message was that my lease was going to expire in a few months and it was time to think about what to do next. As it turned out, the car I wanted was both available and at a price-point I could afford to lease. So yesterday, on the new moon, everything came to fruition and I traded a 2017 Tuscon for a 2020 (pictures below). There were a lot of other moving parts that came together to make all of it happen, and I give thanks for each and every blessing along the way.

So driving home last night held a lot of emotions. Getting to spend time with a friend I don’t get to see nearly enough anymore. Feeling blessed and grateful that the decisions I’ve been making have helped me get to a place I never imagined I’d be. Remembering my dad and wondering what he’d think of all of it.

Normally I find a song that reflects the emotions of these posts, but this time it happened in reverse. As I was driving I chose to listen to “Souvenirs” by Dan Fogelberg, and the second verse struck me:

And here is the key to a house far away
where I used to live as a child
They tore down the building when I moved away
And left the key unreconciled

(c) Dan Fogelberg

Reconciliation – in this context. Not actually ‘rejoining’ but more ethereal than that. A state where things fall into balance, where you realize that while the road not taken would have been awesome, and the road you chose had more than its share of bumps, you ended up exactly where you were supposed to be. Despite all of the changes in my life, and undoubtedly changes to come, I feel reconciled and in balance, and where I am to be in this moment. The future is unwritten, be here now. And I will stay ever grateful for all the souls that help to light my path!!!