Nox Amicus

Last Sunday at 1:35pm the moon was New again. When the cycle shifted, I already knew what the new focus would be – but I didn’t have the words. This was odd, since the focus last month, in a tribute to Nez, was Lyrics.

In that post I suggested that we go back to favorite songs or artists and listen to the words they chose – looking to understand meaning and intent. I did follow my own advice, and turned my attention to a few songs I hadn’t embraced for a while. It was good to sit and get to know those old friends again – perhaps even with an ear toward introducing them to the band.

But as I struggled to figure out how to write these words tonight, I began to be more aware that there are other pieces to the puzzle. The struggle was my analytical brain – working and pondering and trying to be oh so very clever. I even thought that perhaps I could work backwards and pick the focus song and it would help bring words to this page – yeah, that didn’t work at all.

Recently I was moved to write a diary entry on energy and entropy – so borrowing from the sailing analogy I had used there, I chose to let the sheets go slack; to take the tension out of the sails. Instead of over-clocking my analytical brain, I decided to leverage this month’s focus: Intuition.

Sometimes we get so mired in shoulds and have-tos, and sometimes even want-tos, that we lose sight of our true motivation – of what “feels” right to us. This has been a struggle for me from my beginnings – over-thinking and over-complicating and always building contingencies – but I’ve learned, more and more over the past 3 years, that better things happen when I can “be” and live in my moments, to follow the whims and whimsy of the muses.

There are always effects to our causes, and consequences to our actions – but those consequences can really bring joy and happiness. It is good to bring mindfulness to our Intuition, but it’s not always necessary to perseverate.

There is no song this time – which is as it should be. In this moment I feel it’s enough to let the Intuition speak for itself.