Nox Amicus

On Thursday afternoon at 1:55pm the Moon was New. Later in that afternoon, Jupiter went Retrograde. It is said that Jupiter retrograde calls us to review or Release something and can be a time of personal growth.

Timely for Jupiter’s turn, last month’s focus was on Release. In my Initiation ritual I was called to let go of my over-thinking and put more trust in my intuition. I have begun to trust that intuition more in the past three years than I used to – I always believed in it, but I would always second-guess myself. Now I find I’m saying “yes” more when I am moved to. If there needs to be damage control on the other side, so be it – but I would much rather work to make amends to someone else as a result of being true to myself, than live with the regret of not having lived this life to the fullest.

At the end of last cycle’s post, I said something that had stuck with me: “there is beauty in Silence”. Some months ago I was walking with a trusted soul, and through our conversation I thought to examine why I often feel the need to fill spaces with words. Was the comment I was considering going to further the discussion? Or was it just there to take up space?

This brought me to recall something I bring to music quite often – “rests are notes too”. Just as important as the things we sing or play are the spaces between them. Why then did I so often feel the need to speak?

What I realized on that walk was a convoluted bit of thinking – early on, my life had taken on the responsibility of crafting an environment that was “okay” – stress-free, palatable, and potentially entertaining. If I was unable to diffuse the cause of someone being upset, then I was fundamentally unlovable. When I found a place where I was undeniably accepted while being quiet – it turned that paradigm on its proverbial ear.

It is not up to me to right the world’s wrongs and make sure no one is upset. As I learned from another trusted soul – everyone is creative, resourceful, and whole. It doesn’t mean that we don’t pitch in and help – we are called to serve our communities – but rarely does success or failure rest solely on only one of us.

So the focus for this cycle is Silence. The Witch’s Pyramid is made of the phrases: ‘to know’, ‘to will’, ‘to dare’, and ‘to keep silent’. If you want to manifest something, do the work – but then be quiet. Don’t draw attention to the thing you want, or to your work – and never let hubris call you to pontificate about it.

Some monks take vows of Silence, and there are specific “silent meditation” retreats. In Silence we can discern our own thoughts, and focus on our own intuition.